The Beeotch Goddess

Ten years ago...

2011-09-11T00:32:00.000-06:00

I'll start with the day before...

On September 10th around 3 a.m. CDT, I was as usual sitting at my computer with Poser open tweaking a character I had been working on. All of the sudden my monitor blinked off, popped and smoke started pouring out of it. I woke Parker up and he quickly took it apart to make sure the fire was out. Later that morning he informed me that the horizontal hold transistor or something like that must have gone out but my monitor still worked limited to a smaller resolution. As if that were not bad enough, that evening we tied our two dogs out in the side yard to get some exercise and left to get a part at the hardware store. When we came back, one of the dogs had wrapped herself around the water faucet and pulled the pipe out of the ground making us a nice pretty fountain in the side yard. No water for the rest of the evening.

That night I spent awake as usual working on poser with my limited monitor capabilities till the wee hours of the morning so when Parker left for the hardware store early on the 11th I was asleep. He woke me when he got back followed by a call from my mother. Parker turned on the TV and I, like most people that day watched in shock and horror at the images on the screen. I logged on line after a bit, can't remember when exactly, that day is a blur and honestly I probably didn't look at a clock. One of the moderators for an e-group I (still) run had suggested that we suspend the rules to allow free conversation and the other mods agreed. We needed that contact. The rest of the day was spent reading email from friends all over the world not only on that group but other email lists as well. I hugged my babies a little tighter that day when the got home from school and the evening was spent explaining the ugliness of the world to them and making patriotic t-shirts because it was all we could do at the time. I still have my shirt packed away.

I was asleep when it happened. I went to bed upset that my dog had broken a water pipe and that my monitor was burned out and was limited to an 800x600 resolution and woke up to a nightmare where my pipes and viewing resolution didn't matter so much. I will always remember, I will never forget.

I created this graphic that day...

Lydia has Starbucks

2011-09-02T18:22:00.001-06:00

Lydia has starbucks
Originally uploaded by WendyTorrence

She loves it. :)

In other news, I started a new blog for pagan specific posting over on tumblr. Shoot me a message if you want the url, ;) just to make it harder on the stalker to find me there *eg*, not that it's hidden or anything lol.

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Don't Quit - Author Unknown

2011-07-20T13:36:00.000-06:00

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When we might have won had we stuck it out.

Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faltering man.
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
And he learned too late when the night slipped down
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver lining of the clouds of doubt
And you can never tell how close you are -
It may be near when it seems afar.
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit,
It's when things seem worst that you mustn't quit.

Author Unknown
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This Poem truly is by "Unknown Author" though it seems quite a few people have tried to claim to have written it. In my research I've found that it was published as early as 1876 and is now public domain. Unless the people who are claiming to have written it had a time machine they are simply not being truthful.

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Miss Lydia

2011-06-23T16:39:00.001-06:00

Miss Lydia
Originally uploaded by WendyTorrence

Miss Lydia

OMG! Srsly?

2010-12-10T10:04:00.000-07:00

So this morning I was reading my son's facebook wall and noticed this girl I've never heard of, and I hear about a lot of girls from my son, is trying to be miss queen beeotch taking up for her bff who is his ex-girl-of-the-week. Not that she needs the help, just this girl seems to think she's all that and a baga... *rolls eyes* While doing this she presents herself as a complete idiot by using so called alternative spelling which I guess is supposed to make people look cool but to me it just makes you look like an uneducated idiot. I said something about it and she came back with:

Nd I happen to be doin good in English. This is facebook not English so yeaa I write correct n englsh class but if yuh hvent noticed people write words differetly on here cuz it's not school! Duhh! So watever you just don't do it cuz yur old so not my fault

No dear child, I don't do it because it makes you look like you are either uneducated or have a very low IQ. You are doing good in English? I can't tell, nor am I taking your "wurd" for it. School isn't just a pastime to fill in twelve years of your life. What they teach in school is actually used in real life.
u may get ovr urself nao, kthxbi!

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So much...

2010-09-28T18:23:00.000-06:00

So much has happened since I last posted. The most prominent is that my ex the pedophile showed up on Facebook and had the audacity to actually contact me and my kids. What he got was a collective, "Fuck off!" from all of us. Someone must have reported him to Facebook as a child predator because that account is no longer there. It was both frightening and liberating at the same time. I also now know that the man is still the same person he was before he spent 15 years in prison. I guess he both found God and lost him again while he was collecting college degrees courtesy of our tax dollars.

Found out he's already worked his "charm" on some other poor woman, named Wendi. Yeah, it's creepy that he chose someone with the same first name as me. She's totally brainwashed by him. Came on my daughter's fb wall giving us all a what for because we were picking on poor Doug. *rolls eyes* She got what for right back for defending a man who raped a six year old. According to her it's my fault he went to prison. *shakes head* Well, the only thing I can think of as to how it would be my fault is that I turned over his confession that he wrote to me to the DA. In all actuality that was doing Doug a favor because if he would have proceeded with a trial and made those girls take the stand to testify he would have gotten life behind bars instead of a plea bargain for 15 years.

I remember the day I went before the Grand Jury in Midland and the looks on the faces of the jury members. They wanted to fry him. I got to see the medical reports that day and I was horrified. That day was when I started calling it a rape of a six year old instead of just saying she was molested. Rape is what he did and the only term that can describe it. He should have spent the rest of his life behind bars but I wasn't given a choice, that was all in the hands of the DA.

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Finally!

2010-07-14T10:41:00.000-06:00

After many years of Jimmy the Rat Bastard getting away with not paying child support it looks like they are going to get a judge to issue a warrant for him. Apparently he pulled another stupid move. They decided it was time to review how much child support he was paying Audra and apparently when he got the paperwork he pulled another dead beat dad move and quit his job. What a LOSER! They are still going to raise what she is owed each month with or without him there and it will most likely be way more than they had it originally set at since most of the other kids are over 18. They will use what he is capable of earning to set the amount since he isn't interested in having a say.

I would like to see him try to claim he can't find work in the oil field right now too. Even if they aren't drilling like crazy up here in Wyoming, they are punching holes in the ground making it look like swiss cheese down there in West Texas. Jobs to be had there for sure. Besides, apparently he just quit a perfectly good job for no reason other than OMG they were going to collect some child support.

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Graduation Day

2010-05-29T22:46:00.002-06:00

Gini the Grad
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My baby girl graduated today. She is my youngest daughter and I am very proud of her not only on this day but everyday.

Congratulations Miss Virginia may all your dreams come true baby girl.

Love you always, Momma xoxo

Fibro February...

2010-02-28T06:24:00.000-07:00

As most of my readers know I have been living with Fibromyalgia for years. Like every year since moving up here the cold weather is not my friend. I don't know how much more of this I can deal with. Even typing hurts some days...

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Willow the Wiccabe

2010-01-18T14:17:00.004-07:00

When I was on the Psycho Stalker's hate blog to get the url for the post she made about the rape of my children I noticed a recent entry. I'm posting an excerpt from it to illustrate just what a fluff idiot she is that knows absolutely nothing about real magick.

When we all lived in the same town, one night we ran into her and some of her friends at Walmart. When we got back to our vehicle, one of them had drawn an upside down pent on it. That was too Helter Skelter for me. I could just imagine them showing up one night at our home, high in a fit of rage and killing us. That's when we moved and NEVER again let her know where we lived.

Ok, first I have to snark the last part. She was so afraid that it was two years later that they actually left. This happened quite soon after they very first moved in together. He was still married to his wife at the time.

I drew the pentagram on his door. It wasn't upside down as she is trying to claim now. When she blogged about it before she was still a holier-than-though Christian and just bitched about the fact that I drew a pentagram on his van. Now that she's pretending to be Pagan I guess she needs it to have been upside down because she knows jack shit about pentagrams and their symbolism or that Traditional Wicca uses both. The inverted pentagram is in fact the symbol for second degree.

I did not see them in Wal-Mart. Parker and I were grocery shopping after midnight. We parked pretty far out where no one else was parked. While we were in Wal-Mart Jimmy's wife and another friend of ours came up to me to say hi. The other friend told me to be careful because Jimmy and the whore were in there. Parker and I picked up the last few things we were there for and checked out. When I got out to the parking lot I find that Jimmy parked right next to my vehicle of all places. His door was about a foot from mine. I performed the LBRP right there marking the banishing earth pentagram on his door.

Hey, it was more original than the ole "wash me" most people write on dirty ass vehicles...

The History of the Psycho Stalker

2010-01-16T12:51:00.009-07:00

Ok, so I've written over the years about the woman who married my ex and then couldn't leave me alone, you know, the Psycho Stalker. I don't know why she became obsessed with me, I wasn't the woman married to the man when this woman started fucking him. I was already with Parker for a few years at that time. I barely even had anything to do with that man other than the fact that he was married to a friend of mine who happens to also be a cousin of a cousin.

They had two kids and one on the way when he met Charlene in a convenience store he stopped at on the way to and from work. She's one of those women who saw a roughneck and dollar signs flashed before her eyes. He flirted with her and she spread her legs faster than butter across hot bread. She even knew he was married with children and one on the way because she saw Jimmy out with his wife and kids one night. I know this because she told his wife when they met after his wife found out about the affair and I, along with two of our other friends was sitting in another booth within hearing distance. Charlene told her that she saw them and decided they looked too happy so she had to change that.

Charlene's mistake was that she told Jimmy she was pregnant. That sent him running away from her since the reason he was cheating was because his wife was pregnant and under doctors orders to not have sex. He told his wife all about Charlene and begged her forgiveness. She forgave him, again, mostly because she was pregnant and knew once they got past the pregnancy limited sex issue there wouldn't be an issue. I guess Charlene figured out that you can't win Jimmy by becoming pregnant because all the sudden she lost the baby. A pregnancy her ex husband called a miracle in fertility anyway since that woman never got pregnant the whole time they were married since she had her tubes tied after her last child was born. Thing is, Jimmy told her he was going to stay with his wife and wanted her to leave him alone. She couldn't handle that though because she started driving by his house to see if he was home and then she started following him out to the rig he was working on and sleeping in her car in desperate hope that he would pull over and talk to her. Which he did one day right after the baby was born and his wife was again under doctors orders not to have sex. When his wife found out that time she tossed him out.

He went back and forth several times begging his wife to take him back, even called her from Wyoming where Charlene had dragged him off to in order to get him away from his family. He told his wife he hated it up there and all he wanted was to come home to his family. In all the years I've known Jimmy he has never liked cold weather so everyone who knew Jimmy wasn't surprised that he hated Wyoming and wanted to get back home. His plan was to leave Charlene up there and come home. Unfortunately his grandmother died and he needed Charlene to pay for the trip back home for the funeral. When he was in town he met with his wife and she had taken up a collection from some of his friends to give him enough money to get back to Texas after he took Charlene back to Wyoming. When they got back up there though her parents kicked them out of their house and Jimmy was stuck with Charlene and they used the money his wife had given him to return to Texas.

They moved in with his dad who was living in his mothers old place. Charlene decided Jimmy needed to get a divorce and hired a lawyer herself. Jimmy did everything possible to stall that divorce including not ever attending the class mandatory for parents to take in order to get a divorce in Texas. His wife had to ask the judge to make an exception and grant her a divorce without him attending that class. Hell, once after watching Jimmy and his wife in the hall of the courthouse his own lawyer made a comment about not understanding why Jimmy and his wife were getting divorced since it was even obvious to him they were still in love with each other. Charlene paid for it and Jimmy technically filed for a no fault divorce but it was his wife who was granted the divorce on the grounds of abandonment and adultery. Even after the divorce though Jimmy still tried to get back with his ex-wife... even after he and Charlene got married. He told everyone he only filed for a divorce from his wife because the Mormon Bishop told him to. He even told someone once that he told that to a therapist he had gone to and that the therapist had advised him that he should get back together with his ex-wife since he obviously loved her so much. That was when Jimmy cheated on Charlene with his ex, he sought her out and begged to get back together. After his ex wouldn't let him move back in Charlene found out about the affair, because I blogged about it, and they moved so fast they left most of their shit behind at his grandmothers house. I know this because I helped his dad, who I've known since I was five, clean up the place so he could sell it.

It was at the beginning of that two year divorce that Charlene had started her internet searches. She found his wife but she found me too. Why? Because I blog. I blog about anything that is on my mind at the time and I just so happened to have blogged about Jimmy a few times because we have a child together and who hasn't blogged about the frustrations of an ex, especially when they skip their child support payment. I also blogged about him and his wife and their situation. Jimmy even called me up once telling me I was making his life hell because Charlene would read my blog and throw a wild fit. She couldn't even keep straight who wrote what and to this day blames me for shit his now ex-wife wrote.

His ex-wife once made a post venting about Charlene and ended it with a declaration that Charlene would never get the kids away from her, said she'd kill her first. Yeah, she was a heart broken mother who was harassed on a daily basis by Charlene who had vowed to make the woman's life a living hell, even tracked her down when she moved to stop the drive-bys Charlene was still doing. She was distraught when she wrote it and removed it later. She wasn't even aware that Charlene was reading anything she posted on the internet and since Jimmy has a reading impediment he never had been a person who got on the internet much except to look at porn. What was written was not in anyway posted for Jimmy or Charlene to read, it was a way for his ex-wife to vent. Neither one of us had any idea we were being cyber-stalked.

I eventually found out because apparently I vented one too many times about Jimmy and Charlene blasted me on the internet about it. After that I started tracking the IP addresses on all my sites and blogs. She decided it was time to start a war with me and made herself a LiveJournal account. She started telling me that they would take me to court to get custody of my daughter and they would win because they were God fearing Christians and I was a Satan worshiping WITCH. She even posted her disappointment in the fact that witches are no longer burned.

I made the mistake of calling her a stalker and pointing out how I could show in court that she was stalking me. I mentioned that she had joined several pagan email lists I was on and she being a Christian had no reason to join those lists other than to stalk me. A couple of weeks after I posted that she made a new LJ account and claimed she was a witch too, from a fam trad going back hundreds maybe even thousand of years. Then proceeded to join every pagan group I was on and any other one she could find. She made another account later because she kept finding herself blocked from joining groups I was on or friending people on my flist. One of the first groups she tried to join under her new name was one that I run. That was how I knew she opened a new account. We wont even go into how she was digging through the comments on my friends journals to see if I had made a comment. I know this because she couldn't control herself one day and actually made a comment to a six month old comment I had made on a friends journal.

She started stalking me eight years ago, I've known about it and her existence on the internet for less. I found out about her existence on the net when she let me know. I know how long she's been stalking me because I looked it up in my domain logs to see when her IP started showing up. I made the mistake of posting screen shots from a stat program I was using on my LJ to show how many times a day she was visiting. Now she uses that program and posts copy pastes of her logs where she has edited in my IP address so she can claim I'm stalking her. Oh hell, everything I have ever posted to show that she was stalking me she is now trying to claim that I'm doing to her. I guess she forgets that other people on the internet saw what she was doing. They would often comment on how she would change her profile page on LJ to look just like mine. They would warn me to be careful because THEY thought she posed a danger to me. I laughed them off... surely she wasn't that crazy, she would eventually get bored and leave me alone.

Then one day she posted this: "I have three questions! ONE: Did her cheating on her husband, who apparently was also unstable, did that cause him to do what he did! TWO: Did he lash out to hurt her and he hurt her in the most possible way? THREE: Would he have had a chance to hurt the girls IF she had left him when he started beating her?!?" Which is an excerpt from a blog post that can still be found on the internet. (http://bit.ly/6aalJj) She wrote the post because I vented about Jimmy breaking his daughter heart in a blog I had called What a Fucking Asshole. It was that post that enlightened me on just how mentally twisted this woman truly is. Who at all can come up with a scenario where the rape of a six year old could have just been a mans way of getting back at his wife for cheating? How could a sane person even go there? Forget about the fact that she's sympathizing with a pedophile and taking her information from a letter he wrote while sitting in jail for his crimes and that the affair mentioned in said letter happened after he was put in jail for his crimes. It dawned on me that this woman is indeed as mentally ill as her ex warned me of. This woman can justify any wrong in her mind as long as it suits her needs. That was the moment I started fearing for my safety.

She knew where I lived. Every time she was in town she would do two things, drive by my house and go to the mall to pace in front of the place where Jimmy's ex worked. I moved. I moved out of state, all the way to the state my husband grew up in. We bought a house near his mothers and moved. It happened to be Wyoming and Charlene does have parents here but they live on the other side of the state and they had previously kicked Jimmy and Charlene out. Jimmy hates cold weather, stated that he hated Wyoming before so why not. Plus she wouldn't know right... wrong.

She found me here. Was even pulling up my sites with her mobile phone several times a day. Then a few months after I moved here they moved here of all places and not just to Wyoming, they moved to the same side of the state, right to the town I mentioned several times in my blog. I wasn't living in that town, just shopping there and visiting my sister-in-law. I had no idea till she started showing up in the regional pagan groups I was on. I stopped going to that town.

I was miserable for a long time. Spent way too much time looking at logs and stats. One day I decided enough was enough. She was never going to wake up sane and leave me alone. I remembered that she posted to me once saying that she liked it better when I didn't know she was watching me because I wrote more openly. Actually, it was in the same post she made where she was upset that we don't burn witches anymore. And with my new understanding of her mental state that particular post wasn't the least bit funny anymore. I still have the screen capture of that journal here: http://www.wolfrose.com/stalker/charlenejournal-1.jpg

Well, she and I finally agreed on something. I also liked it better before I knew she was stalking me. So I removed all the codes from my pages for the stat counter program and simply stopped checking in domain logs. I started ignoring her stalking. Oh she still showed up places, I couldn't ignore that. I started leaving all the places she would show up. I stopped posting so much about her stalking and went back to venting occasionally about Jimmy and his unwillingness to pay child support. This latest round of her insane harassment of me is the result of him being forced to pay me after nearly an entire year of not paying a dime.

Most people who look at all the evidence sees the pattern. She's too delusional to notice her own pattern I guess. She doesn't call me a stalker and start inventing "proof" unless they've received an enforcement notice from the Texas Attorney General's office. She does it every time. She used to try to claim I was stalking her because it pissed her off that I was calling her a stalker and was showing proof of her stalking me. In her insane head she thinks that if she calls me the stalker that makes it so. I'm the one who has the hard evidence to get a protective order against her though. Her so called evidence against me just doesn't hold up under scrutiny like mine does. None of my evidence is copy pasted from anywhere. In fact, some of her so called evidence would actually blow up in her face because it's stuff like a huge stack of printed out copies of my profile page she made to keep track of how many posts I was making that were locked entries.

So here we are again. Eight years later and she still hasn't left me alone. I know, she says the same about me. *shrugs* Just because she says it doesn't make it true. How could I possibly have been stalking her for all that time when she herself posted that she liked it better when I didn't know she was watching?

So I found myself this time letting it bother me again, letting her push those buttons. Thing is though, just like when I decided to ignore her stalking I've come to realize that there isn't anything I can do to change it. She is mentally unstable after all, just as her ex warned me about so long ago. She just isn't going to go away and since she targeted me she's not ever going to stop. In fact, she's started joining the support groups for my health issues now, not just the pagan and witchcraft groups. I'm the only one I have the power to do anything about so this too I shall have to do my best to ignore and just hope the people she dupes into her game of harassing me are smart enough to smell bullshit when she serves it up to them.

In any case, I'm not going to stop hoping that someday someone will either make her take some medication for her mental issues or put her in a mental hospital where she can get the help she so desperately needs. Till such time as that I will do my best to ignore her stalking and harassment of me and even though I still find her emulation of me to be creepy I know I'm safe because she can't get to me physically... for now... and there is that protective order. I'm pretty sure she's far enough away now that she can't harm me physically...

Oh, but I do expect there will be some wild post made somewhere that mimics this one in form just full of Charlene's twisted fantasies about what she wishes my life were like. It's become apparent that she can't be happy unless she fantasizes about my life being something less than hers... for her to be happy I must not be.

and if wishes were horse beggars would ride...

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Blessed

2010-01-15T16:44:00.002-07:00

I am a very blessed woman to have such a wonderful husband who is also a witch. We share in all things including working magick together. It's a very special thing being married to your soul mate who is in all ways your partner. :)

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The New Moon

2010-01-15T13:24:00.001-07:00

The new moon brought some very welcome changes to our home last night. Our home will be much more peaceful and our youngest daughter is beaming again.

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meanwhile back on Hoth...

2010-01-04T17:31:00.000-07:00

We made it home safe and sound. The house is still standing... that's about all I can say. Teenagers acted like teenagers while we were gone and did everything we asked them not to do. *sigh*

It's good to be back in my own bed though. ;)

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Going Home

2010-01-01T23:39:00.000-07:00

We will be leaving Las Vegas soon. Maybe tomorrow, maybe early Sunday morning. Early as in before the sun rises. o_O

We've had a wonderful visit with the familia but now it's time to go back to the frozen north and see what the teens have done to my house while we were gone. LOL! Hopefully it's still standing. ;)

I will most likely tweet the drive again because I can. :)

Happy New Year everyone!!!

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Blessings for 2010!

2010-01-01T23:32:00.000-07:00

May peace break into your house & may thieves come to steal your debts. May your pockets become a magnet of $100 bills. May love stick to your face like Vaseline & may laughter assault your lips! May your clothes smell of success like smoking tires, May happiness slap you across the face & may your tears be that of joy. May the problems you had forget your home address! May 2010 be the best year of your life!

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Still in Vegas

2009-12-27T13:35:00.001-07:00

Well, my daughter and her family left yesterday and arrived home in Arizona late last night safe and sound. My son-in-law's phone had a dead battery by the time they got there. He was texting me the whole way. I'll miss them all so much.

Christmas was awesome! Lydia isn't quite old enough yet to where it's really fun watching her open presents but it was still fun watching her rip into her gifts and then play with her new toys. Next year will be even better. I guess we will have to switch from coming in November to coming down for Christmas every year lol. This year my aunt got me the best present. She went to an occult shop here in Vegas and asked them what she could get a Witch for Yule and ended up getting me a Maiden, Mother and Crone incense burner. My aunt is AWESOME! I cried too. It's just so like her to do something like that just to see someone she loves smile. She absolutely loves to see her loved ones smile. She's such a loving person and I love her so much sometimes my heart just might burst open from it lol. My whole family is tight like that though. We're Irish/Italian/Latino we can't help it ROFLMAO!!

Parker and I are taking some time for ourselves this week before we go back home. We're going to enjoy the weather and spend New Year's in Vegas. Life is good. :)

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Merry Xmas!

2009-12-25T14:26:00.002-07:00

Sending love and warm wishes to all this holiday season!

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Winter Vacation

2009-12-20T15:25:00.000-07:00

If you follow my tweets you already know that we made it here safe and sound. Last night was the grand opening of the holiday festivities here, the annual ornament party. It was a blast. The living room was filled wall to wall with people. Old friends and good times. My aunt, as usual, had a beautiful buffet decked out with lots of Christmas treats and her infamous cheese dip. Great fun was had by one and all.

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Road Trip

2009-12-17T18:45:00.000-07:00

We are mostly ready to go. We're going to drive straight down there this time, no stopovers. This trip we're leaving the boy with a friend and taking two dogs and a bird. What an interesting trip this shall be. lol

I might tweet while on the road. It'll be easier to do that with my new phone than it was with the old one. I might even send pix in from the road. Stay tuned... ;)

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Same shit different year...

2009-12-11T01:37:00.001-07:00

I tracked Jimmy down again to turn him into the Atty Gen for Child Support enforcement. I put it off for a while because I knew that as soon as I did it that Psycho Piece of Cunt Chowder he's married to would start harassing me again. I told Audra that, told her that last year when she wanted me to help track him down for his mom since she wants to see him one last time before she dies. The only reason that Psycho still picks on me is because I'm on the internet, Audra doesn't get on the internet that much so the Psycho can't stalk her like she does me.

I've put enough energy in that drama. It was good for a couple of laughs but its just not that amusing. I've got packing to do for our Christmas trip and Parker is busy working on a couple of website jobs that came in yesterday so he can't help till they're done. Probably get done just in time to load the stuff in my truck. Thank goodness I've got that new truck or we wouldn't be able to get everything down there. LOL!! I forgot how much stuff you have to take with you when you've got a baby along.

On the issue of my craptastic excuse for broadband internet, I think we found a replacement, one where every customer, including the library, isn't sharing the same fucking IP addy and one that I might actually be able to load websites on without losing my internet connection. Or be able to take advantage of my Netflix account with the PS3 without being accused of hogging all the bandwidth resources of the other customers. *rolls eyes*

That reminds me, I need to get a replacement bulb for the projector soon or we will have to watch movies and play Rock Band on the TV instead of in the theater room. That would suck.

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Snow, snow and more snow

2009-12-10T11:19:00.000-07:00

If this keeps up we may get snowed in early this year...

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Lydia's First Thanksgiving

2009-11-25T14:25:00.001-07:00

Lydia
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

Miss Lydia got her first haircut today. She also had her first taste of Ice tea and now there isn't a tea glass that is safe around her because she loves the stuff. If she sees the glass she reaches for it.

I will most likely be too busy to post tomorrow so I will go ahead and send out good wishes and blessings to all my friends and loved ones that live in the USofA. May you all have a very Happy Thanksgiving filled with lots of love and laughter.

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Thanksgiving with the Family

2009-11-20T14:04:00.000-07:00

I'll be out of pocket for a while traveling to have Thanksgiving with family. :)

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Witches Among Us

2009-10-31T19:13:00.012-06:00

Salt Lake's Fox13 News ran this on their 9pm broadcast last night.

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The Social Event of the Year!

2009-10-12T02:35:00.004-06:00

The Witches High Tea
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

This weekend we went to the Fourth Annual Witches High Tea presented by the Utah Black Hat Society at the Grand America Hotel in Salt Lake City and my granddaughter and husband were on the Fox13 News that night. :)

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Gardnerians_all Yahoo!Group

2009-07-28T14:20:00.003-06:00

*sigh* I made the mistake of turning email delivery back on for Gardnerians_all. There really wasn't much traffic going on. Wiccan Wade is in residence there so he posts every so often and Aiden Kelly has been posting some of his old poetry but not really any other traffic to speak of. Most people are on moderation actually.

So yesterday I was a bit peeved to see actual spam posted on there, not just something people don't care for so they call it spam, actual UCE. It was that post I'm sure a lot saw yesterday from a person pretending to have bought the free bos cd. That same tired post that has been being posted for years. It's not from someone who bought the cd, it's from the person selling it and she's been copy pasting the same post year after year, just using a different address.

Turns out Delia let it through for some inane reason but she doesn't want any one to say it is spam or say that the person posting that they received the cd will not be posting a review since if they hold to their ten year pattern they will have already abandoned that email addy. It's off topic to say that. Apparently she's worried about off topic traffic clogging up the list. *rolls eyes*

Over the years being on this list I've seen her derail on topic conversations because someone said something she didn't like. Is it any wonder the majority of traffic on that list now days is from one of the biggest jokes of the pagan internet, Wiccan Wade (the Morrigan is a nice mommy) MacMorrigan?

I'm waiting to see if she is going to kick me off, I've already put myself back on no mail. As long as she has a strangle hold on the list there will NEVER be any serious conversations about the craft. No one likes highly censored lists. Once upon a time it was a good list. *shakes head* Now I have to say don't bother, there are much better lists out there for serious craft discussions.

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Lydia Oleen Stringer-Lund

2009-06-19T13:39:00.003-06:00

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Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

June 17, 2009 at 7:59 am my granddaughter came into this world weighing in at 7lbs 8oz and a whole 20in tall.

Just look at all that hair! I'm very proud! :)

Mom and baby are now home and doing well.

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just a small update

2009-06-02T13:40:00.003-06:00

Just thought I would post here to say I'm still alive. Having a nicely horrid fibro flare at the moment. Been busy since it's Pagan Pride planning season. Also DraigSidhe is putting on the Aspen Grove Midsummer. Since my grandchild is due to arrive around Midsummer we've scheduled that for early July instead of in June. So, fibro flare + Pagan Pride planning + Midsummer + OMGBABYCOMING = busy and tired me.

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LA Times

2009-02-21T09:22:00.003-07:00

Here is the article from the LA Times on my grandfather: http://tinyurl.com/d5zvst

He was a vibrant and jovial man. That is how I remember him and will hold him in my heart forever.

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sighs

2009-02-16T23:18:00.003-07:00

Last month I posted about my grandfather being in his last days. Today around 1pm PST he crossed the veil. He's not suffering anymore, trapped in a body that doesn't work and unable to communicate with the rest of the world. He is now at peace. I grieve because I loved him but I celebrate that he is now free and that his dash was well lived, well lived indeed.

Goodbye Grandpa Frank, you'll always be in my heart.

Frank Charles Ashby Jr.
March 22, 1932 - February 16, 2009

The Dash
copyright 1996 Linda Ellis

I read of a man who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
He referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning...to the end.

He noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the following date with tears,
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

For that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth...
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

For it matters not, how much we own;
the cars....the house...the cash.
What matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

So think about this long and hard...
are there things you'd like to change?
For you never know how much time is left
that can still be rearranged.

If we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real,
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

And be less quick to anger,
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we've never loved before.

If we treat each other with respect,
and more often wear a smile...
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.

So, when your eulogy is being read
with your life's actions to rehash...
would you be proud of the things they
say about how you spend your dash?

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It was ten years ago today...

2009-01-27T19:44:00.003-07:00

January 27, 1999 I found my oldest brother dead. He had been there for about four days. His heater was on 80 and in Texas they don't tend to have cold winters for days on end, it had been in the 80's during the day for those four days. Needles to say it wasn't a pretty picture. I knew before I unlocked his door what I would walk into, it is a distinct smell. Basically, I shut my self off so I could do what needed to be done. I got the door open, visually confirmed what I already knew would be on the other side of the door and then looked for his phone, a cordless and not on the charger. When I found it, I walked outside, for obvious reasons, and called 911. I then called my friend Audra to come sit with me while I waited on the police and coroner etc. to come. Then I called my mom, told her what happened and asked her to go over to my grandmothers house because she was home alone and I didn't want her to hear about this while she was alone. Best laid plans always go wrong... my grandmother called my brother's house. I had to tell her over the phone that, "no Grandma, nothing is ok". She asked if he was dead and I said yes. I did find out later that she called one of her friends to come sit with her. Meantime, the coroner had gotten there and he told me that the cause of death was obvious, auto erotic asphyxiation.

My entire family was just devastated naturally. I felt I had to keep it together, plus I couldn't go through one of the basic steps of the grief process, denial... I was smacked in the face with reality the moment I walked in his house and saw him. I did keep it together, hell I was numb, post traumatic stress will do that to ya, so I made sure he got cremated like he always told me he wanted.

Thing is, I did not grieve at all really, not for years and even now I still have issues because I've not completed the grieving process. This year it's been really hard. Started a few days ago, just bursting into tears for no reason except that he crossed my mind. Even now writing this the tears are flowing. I can't even reminisce about him much because it hurts so much still. I would love to be able to talk about him and remember his humor without feeling like my heart is being ripped from my chest.

My whole world was turned upside down that day. I did not know what post traumatic stress really was or how devastating. Everything about my life changed that day. None of my friends even understood that something was actually wrong in my world except that I had become withdrawn.

A few months later Parker flew down from Washington State and literally saved me from myself. Parker became a safe haven where I wouldn't be self destructive and a few years later when I had my first meltdown he knew exactly how to handle it. Parker is the best thing that ever happened in my life aside from my children.

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I should post an update eh

2009-01-11T10:11:00.004-07:00

I'm still in Vegas :D and loving my extended visit with my Aunt. Do not miss the snow at all. :p

A few things are going on right now that are a bit stressful.

I'm trying to get my oldest daughter to transfer out to Vegas to finish up school. She would be somewhere that her dad and I could come see her every so often or vice versa and we wouldn't worry as much about her.

My last grandfather is about to die. He has alzheimers and is in the last stages where he is doesn't want to eat much. In this stage they start losing the ability to swallow so they start refusing food. He is long past the point to where he even knows who anyone is. Very sad and very heartbreaking. My Aunt is dealing with letting go now. It's hard, really hard. He may last another month, six weeks at best. I'm very thankful that I can be here at this time and that I got to see him one last time as well. The man lived a very vibrant life. He knew Roy Orbison, they were friends growing up. That man had some good stories.

It's tax time...

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Las Vegas Snow 08

2008-12-17T17:31:00.003-07:00

Las Vegas Snow 08
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

A few hundred miles South and a few thousand feet down in elevation and the fucking white shit follows me to Vegas... damn it! <.<

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Going South was a grand idea!

2008-12-04T13:31:00.002-07:00

Well, looking at the Kemmerer webcam I see that it is 23*F there with snow on the ground. I'm enjoying the 57*F weather here in Las Vegas even though people here seem to think it's a little bit cold.

If I were home right now I would most likely be curled up in bed crying from fibro hell. I'm very thankful to have been able to come down here to spend some time with my aunt and enjoy a warmer winter this year. No snow for me! *snoopy dancing*

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Election Day

2008-11-04T13:50:00.003-07:00

I exercised my civil right to vote today and was privileged to witness my 19 year old daughter register and cast her first vote today.

I woke up this morning with only a few hours of sleep and threw on some clothes. I then called my son-in-law so he and my daughter could ride with Parker and I down to the polling location. They both had to register so they could vote and I'm happy this state is one that allows registering at the polling location on election day.

So even though I do not at all expect Wyoming's 3 electoral votes to go to Obama all four of us did cast our votes for Obama... and every other democrat on the ballot. I left the one where only republicans were on there blank just to make a statement.

Remember, voting is a RIGHT so if you haven't voted yet please do.

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Blessed Samhain to all!

2008-10-31T16:07:00.005-06:00

Witch?
Yes, I'm a witch. I've stood before
The Lord of Death and found him not unkind.
I've practiced well the sacred hidden lore
The words of power and the spells that bind
And loosen; culled from nature's trove
The herbs that heal - But most of all have I
Danced naked, free and proud beneath the sky
Unto the Goddess, She who shines above.

Witch?
Yes, I'm a witch for I am free
From hope of Heaven and the fear of Hell.
No solemn vale of tears is this to me.
Earth is my cup of joy. I love her well.
Seek not to turn me from my destined fate.
Earth is enough for me, and if I burn
I shall not leave her but to earth return
To live again a witch -- Re-in-carnate.

For 'tis our promise and our firm belief
That She who loves us brings us back again
As seeds once buried rise again in leaf,
Stem, branch an blossom in the Summer rain.
And are we less than seeds? But should it be
That one life only was our metered span
And Power comes but once to any man
I'll live it lusty, joyfully and free
And be a Witch!

Author -- Sea, of the Gardnerian Coven of Deepstar- October 27, 1971

What?? Are you serious?

2008-10-28T17:36:00.003-06:00

Why do otherwise intelligent people believe outlandish bullshit when election season comes around???

I mean come on, if Obama wasn't born in Hawaii don't you think Fox News would have been all over that already? Don't you think Hillary would have jumped on that? Do you honestly believe he would have gotten this far? Smarter, sneakier people have already vetted all that shit and if there were anything there it would have already blown up all over the place.

Who gives a shit about how much the RNC spent to put clothes on Palin!!!! Do we talk about how much the suits the guys wear cost??? Think they wear the same suit everyday?

What I care about is that eight years ago we had a projected surplus and now we are borrowing money from CHINA!

We're supposed to be the greatest nation on Earth! What the hell are we doing watching our middle class become the poverty class while job after job is outsourced to another country and the corporation doing it gets a big fat tax cut in reward? And why does anyone believe it's a good idea???

I think it's crap so I will not vote Republican thank you very much. Oh, and yes, I have voted for Republicans before. I vote issues not party and I diligently research before I make up my mind. I do lean a bit left of center but I'm not a left wing liberal by no means. I actually wish there weren't such a thing as big political parties. I wish more people could think for themselves instead of needing a party to tell them what to think.

-Wendy The Webcrafter

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Witches High Tea

2008-10-18T23:44:00.003-06:00

Witches High Tea
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

Today was The Utah Black Hat Society's Third Annual Witches High Tea event. It was held at the Grand America Hotel in down town Salt Lake City this afternoon from 2pm till 5pm. Don't ever tell any of the fifty attendees that real witches don't wear pointy hats because obviously, they do.

The Black Hat Society is a pagan social group founded in 2006 by Chrissy Johnson, a Salt Lake City denizen. The high tea event held each year in October is the pinnacle event for the society where one gets to dress to the nines in their finest witch attire, don their best pointy hat and enjoy a grand afternoon of tea and conversation. The society also hosts an afternoon tea in the spring and have been seen caroling on the streets of Salt Lake in December for the annual Witches Wassail. Chrissy, along with TaMara and Kayote, the organizers of the society's events, have stated that early next summer they intend to add another exciting event to the society's calendar.

If you do not live in the Salt Lake area and think The Black Hat Society sounds like your kind of party please do consider starting up a Black Hat Society in your area.

The Salt Lake NBC affiliate, KSL5, covered the event held today and ran the following clip on the six o'clock news:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yekJcWZwxLQ

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SLC Pagan Pride Day 2008

2008-09-19T12:28:00.004-06:00

SLC Pagan Pride 2008
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

It has taken me most of a week to get to a point where I feel like typing. This is when having fibro gets on my last nerve. I also over do it at PPD. I like to take photos which means I'm not going to sit around and just take it easy. I'm up all day wandering around taking pictures the whole day. I do this to myself and then pay for it after. Will do it again next year too. lol

This year we decided to try something a little different. We took it back to the roots and decided to not have vendors. We did have a food booth run by SLCPP and that was a phenomenal success. Not having vendors turned out to be a good thing too. People actually congregated at the information tables and all the workshops were very well attended. The day flowed well.

Our workshops this year were:
Paganism 101 by Parker J. Torrence Draig Sidhe priest and author of Sea, Land, Sky: a Dragon Magick Grimoire.
Queer Mysteries by Duirin High Priest of Draco Lupa Luna.
Myths and Legends by Daniel Halacy.
Essences of Magick by Talea.
The Circle and the Staff by Aisling DreamRange High Priestess of DreamRange Dynamic.
Pagan Drumming by Panthea.

The Kids Zone this year was a hit and there were children there all day long except for the two times that they were all sitting around Mother Goose listening to her spin tales of wonder and delight. The children just adore Mother Goose.

Altarscapes was beautiful. I hope next year we get more people volunteering to display an altar. The year we had seven and each was just beautiful and inspiring.

We also had a concert by a local duo called Hidden Truth. They are an acoustic band of a guitar and a wooden flute. Their music is just beautiful. Visit their myspace: http://www.myspace.com/hiddentruth5040

Our closing ritual this year was presented by The Mountain Shadow Clan of the Toteg Tribe sponsored by Aspen Grove. There was a great litany involved in the ritual where all the groups past and present in the valley were named and honored. We truly did Celebrate our Roots this year.

Over all we had 370 attendees, collected 412 pounds of food for the Utah Aids Foundation, raised enough money to pay for our space for NEXT year and educated some people about what Pagans are.

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Health Care

2008-09-08T14:18:00.004-06:00

So the same old lame scare tactic used to argue against universal health care is that there will be a bureaucrat in between you and your health care. So let's look at the definition of bureaucrat.

bureaucrat
Main Entry: bu·reau·crat
Pronunciation: \ˈbyu̇r-ə-ˌkrat, ˈbyər-\
Function: noun
Date: 1839

: a member of a bureaucracy

bureaucracy
Main Entry: bu·reau·cra·cy
Pronunciation: \byu̇-ˈrä-krə-sē, byə-, byər-ˈä-\
Function: noun
Inflected Form(s): plural bu·reau·cra·cies
Etymology: French bureaucratie, from bureau + -cratie -cracy
Date: 1818

1 a: a body of nonelective government officials b: an administrative policy-making group
2: government characterized by specialization of functions, adherence to fixed rules, and a hierarchy of authority
3: a system of administration marked by officialism, red tape, and proliferation

Oh my! Sounds a lot like an insurance company to me.

Not so long ago my aunt had a blood test done that showed positive markers for pancreatic cancer. One of the things needed for further testing was an MRI study with and without contrast and the most important one being the one with. The insurance paper pushers decided that they would allow her to have the one without contrast but not the one she needed the most. They have also recently denied her another test that her doctor told her was needed. I will not even go into the medications the doctor prescribed that the insurance company will not approve.

So you see, that old scare tactic isn't a what if, it's an already is. Universal health care would be better because your doctor would have more say about what you need for your health care. Paper pushers who work for the insurance companies are there to make sure the insurance company makes money. They do not really care whether or not you are sick and need an expensive procedure. Or rather they do care, because they stand to lose money if you actually need the health care you gave them money to insure you would get when you needed it... and they will drop you like hot potato if it looks like you're going to start costing them money.

Just sayin...

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GingerSnap

2008-09-03T12:01:00.004-06:00

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Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

This is the new puppy that we've named GingerSnap. She's ten weeks old in this picture which I took a few hours ago.

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Home!!

2008-08-11T22:49:00.003-06:00

I'm home from fest!! It was awesome!! Now that I've been to both Heartland and Dragonfest I can report that Dragonfest is the one I prefer. More of everything. Of course Heartland does have the coed shower thing going on... but Dfest is closer to me and I know people there. ;) Next time I'll be camping closer to where I would like to be.

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hmmm

2008-08-04T12:41:00.005-06:00

ok, got to get some laundry done before we leave for dragonfest.... so why doesn't this HE machine not have a sarong setting??? ;)

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Evil Stairs of Doom Vs Kayote

2008-07-26T20:48:00.002-06:00

and the stairs win... ouch!

I'm ok... mostly... nothing is broke... my back will have a nice bruise though... :(

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The Good Stuff

2008-07-23T17:25:00.003-06:00

Christi's Wedding 035
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

My daughter got married. :)

It was a very beautiful rite and they really love each other a lot.

You can view the rest of the pix on my flickr.

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Element 11 (the Utah Burn)/ Fibro crap

2008-06-07T10:54:00.006-06:00

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Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose

Last weekend was the Utah Burn otherwise known as Element 11. Like Burning Man but not as large. It's a 21 and over camping event where they make art projects and burn them bonfire style. They had five burns this year. I only made it to three... they were right in front of our camp and I didn't have to travel far to get to them. lol

I had UV reactive dreds in my hair. I was also three or thirty sheets into the wind by the time I took this photo.

In other news, I fired my doctor. I went in on Tuesday to get on Lyrica. He had a student working with him that day and had her see me. She ignored most everything I said. She asked me where I was hurting most that day and I told here around my elbows, the back of my neck and shoulders and down in my hips and lower back. She squeezed on my left elbow and asked if that made it hurt worse and of course it did, duh I can't stand for anything to touch me right now. She left the room and then came back to tell me the places I said I hurt aren't indicative of Fibro *rolls eyes* and so it must be arthritis. Then handed me a prescription for mobic which is a NSAID anti-inflammatory. Now last year the doctor told me never to take ibuprofen again because I have a bleeding ulcer. He signed off on this prescription. WTF? I knew better but I took it anyway. It made me sick of course and it didn't do a fucking thing for my pain.

So Parker goes up to the doctor's office the next day to complain. The nurse calls me later and tells me the doctor said to not take the mobic again (duh) and that he called in another scrip for my ulcer. She said to take that for a week and then let him know how I'm doing. I asked what about my pain problem. She said any anti-inflammatory would irritate my ulcer. I told her that the anti-inflammatory didn't do anything for my pain anyway could he at least give me more flexeril and loratab. She said she would ask. She called back a bit later and said he refused. *growl*

I asked for a referral to a specialist. I refuse to see that man again for ANYTHING!

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Renn Faire, Fibro, and Fucktards oh my!

2008-05-23T09:50:00.004-06:00

Ok so when last I left you I was squeeing about the Utah Renn Faire. So yeah, I went and had myself a grand time walking around in the dust spending money on garb which I look really awesome in. *squee* Went back the second weekend too.

Then I spent the next three days in bed (both times) because fibro sux. Still all hurty.

and then there is the fucktard factor...

I've posted before about how there is a Wiccan Church here in Salt Lake that collected a bunch of money from the community under the pretense that it was a fund to purchase land for the community which they then used to purchase a yurt and put in their Rev.'s back yard. So you guys know me, I've been plenty vocal about calling bullshit on it. This has been going on for about a year now and I doubt it will ever be resolved.

Well, last week someone posted the Charge of the Beeotch to a yahoo list called WestDesertWitchesWeb which was a local list but since a warlocked fucktard runs it and it's heavily moderated he had to open it up to anyone he could get to join it so now it's just another foo foo pagan list. One of the foo foo's on there is the Officer of Air for the a fore mentioned church which means she is responsible for xposting their events all over the place and keeping the minutes. She's also made a point of calling several people in the community liars because she doesn't agree with them even though they can back up what they've stated with documentation or witnesses. She's also stated that Parker, Giffin (the HP of my coven which is the oldest coven in Salt Lake), and I are not part of the community because we don't reside in Salt Lake. This is also a woman who wears fairy wings, the kind you get for kids on Halloween, to every event she attends because apparently she thinks she is one. This is a woman I've spoken to twice briefly. Well, when the Charge of the Beeotch was posted she had something to say... and I quote:

Sorry I have to comment on this post; I know the woman Who wrote this and in no way should anything she posts be promoted. I understand that it is public , but the integrity and position that this person holds in the Utah community leaves much to be desired.

Just my 2 cents. :P
BB Avalon

ROFLMAO!!!!!!!!!

Like I said, I've spoken with Avalon TWICE. She does not know me. All she knows is that I have opinions she doesn't like and I won't shut the fuck up.

As to my position in the community, and it's really nice of her to acknowledge that I'm part of this community eh, I'm one of the Local Coodinators for Salt Lake Pagan Pride and I run the largest and most active Witches Meetup in Utah. What that leaves to be desired for her I guess is that I'm not going away. That leaves my integrity, sorry Avalon, I'm just not going to take money from people and use it for something else to make myself acceptable to your standards of integrity.

So that's what's going on in Kayote Land...

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Today I learned...

2008-03-10T15:53:00.005-06:00

Today I learned that apparently online only friends can't be dear friends. At least that is what I was told. It hurt, a lot. Some of my dearest friends are online friends that I've never met in person... or have only briefly met one time...

inannaliban, enyo, thorswitch, davensjournal, desdemmonna, ferelwing, herbmcsidhe, stephanielynch, jazdewills, teal_cuttlefish, lildrafire, magickalmoon, misslynx, pwnedkitten, rowansolasban, seshen, swisscelt... and others who aren't on LJ (and some who are I'm having brain fog from this stupid flare that is still going on) are all people I really care about and keep up with.

Maybe some people who aren't confined to a bed for days and sometimes weeks don't understand that these online relationships are the only contact with the outside world some people are able to have. Being disabled is quite lonesome at times. Sometimes the only real friend I have is a chihuahua who keeps me company while I'm curled up in pain. But I also have this laptop where I can reach out and interact with lots of people and in doing so I've found people I like and have formed relationships with and for me it doesn't matter that it's just words on a screen, it's human contact. I hurt all the same when I lose an online friend. I've been on the net long enough that I have had several online friends die and I cried all the same just as if I had physically met that person.

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ok this flare can go away any time now...

2008-03-06T12:58:00.003-07:00

FMS really sucks, big time! I'm still having this stupid flare but at least I did get the doctor to give me some loratab. So I'm on 10mg of flexeril and 5mg of loratab and it just dulls the pain... everyone wave at zombie Gwen. I do have to say something here for medical marijuana, if I had a bowl to smoke I wouldn't be hurting this bad. It really does help me more than taking these narcotics. *sigh* oh well... at least they knock me out so I can sleep.

Parker is really understanding my frustration with doctors now. I know how bad I hurt and he knows how bad I hurt but the doctors do not see me all the time like he does and do not know how much I really hurt. I mentioned this in a comment the other day, the doctors usually just want to treat my diabetes because they assume my pain is caused from diabetic neuropathy which in all honesty I have started to develop in my feet and hands but the FMS I had long before I developed diabetes. I've had FMS for about 17 years and I've been diabetic for about five years now.

I can't stand for very long because it hurts and I can't sit in one spot for long because it hurts. I toss and turn when laying down because it hurts. Some days it hurts just to breath. Sometimes, like now, I can not lift a plate because it hurts. Forget opening the cap on a bottled water.

I thank the gods everyday for sending me a man like Parker who is able to work from home so he can take care of me when I'm like this. I do not know what I would do without him. I can't even express in words what he means to me, he truly is the love of my life and my knight in shining armor. I am indeed a very blessed woman to be loved by such a wonderful man as my husband.

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bad day

2008-03-04T11:42:00.003-07:00

really bad day, feel like dying

doctor not in today so i'm only allowed the 10mg of flexeril he prescribed the last time i saw him

this is a curl up and cry all day day... i can't even lift a plate... killmenowplz

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What a weekend!

2007-08-27T14:47:00.004-06:00

A few years ago our youngest son had a problem that our doctor down in Texas told us was sleep walking. This weekend we found out different. On Thursday our son had one of these episodes while in school and unlike when it happened down in Texas where that school didn't contact us till several hours after the problem was noticed this school tried calling us and when no one answered the phone here they sent a police officer to track down my mother-in-law while they took my son to the ER. I'm grateful for that. I was down in Salt Lake at the time and my husband was out in the yard when they tried to call. He did call the school when he came back inside and immediately went up to the hospital after hanging up. The doctor in the ER had a suspicion of what was going on with our son but he did not have the equipment to make a proper diagnosis at our tiny hospital so he decided to send our son down to Primary Childrens Hospital in Salt Lake post haste. My husband called me then to tell me what was going on and that they would be driving down ASAP. I met them at the ER of Primary Childrens around 4:30 pm and at 6 pm we had a new diagnosis and a treatment plan. It turns out my son has been having Atypical Absence Seizures. I am relieved to have a diagnosis that I can do something about. We can treat this.

After spending the night in the hospital for observation we spent the rest of the weekend at a friends house so we could attend some social gatherings going on in town. Friday night was spent at The Greenhouse Effect in Salt Lake for Stealth Coffee. This is something that takes place every Friday night at that location and it is a blast every time I get the opportunity to attend. Saturday we went to Liberty Park for the first Mountain Shadows Clan of the Toteg Tribe meeting. Then Sunday we went to Fairmont Park for a Meetup Picnic where I got my picture taken by a member of the Church of the Sacred Circle (who were also having a meetup in the park) every time I visited the public restroom. I laughed that off but I got pretty peeved when another member of that organization decided to take video of my son when he was near the restroom. There is something seriously wrong with those people!!

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Family Vacation with Asshat Humans and a Bear

2007-08-03T00:16:00.005-06:00

Lewis Falls
Yellowstone National Park

Some of my family came up from Texas to visit me for a few days. This includes my grandmother, mother, niece Sharon, nephew Charlie, and favorite cousin Mike. While my grandmother opted to stay here with my two year old nephew the rest of us decided to embark on a day trip up to Yellowstone National Park. This is a trip I've made a few times but it's never dull and always a beautifully scenic drive. I've never really had a wildlife encounter while up in Yellowstone till this trip though and thus comes the tale of the asshat humans...

It's going on sunset and we're still in the park as the speed limit is 45 at the most but usually more like 35. Why? Because they don't want you to hit the wildlife and the roads are mountainous, curvy, and lined with trees. There are also few passing zones within the park for the same reasons. Does that matter to an asshat in a pickup truck though? Nope. We were driving along doing the speed limit when about fifty feet in front of us crossing the road is a baby bear. We stop, leaving plenty of room between us and the bear. I almost got a picture of it too... till the asshat in the pickup decided that we were just stopping in the middle of the road in a no passing zone for no particular reason at all and zooms around us... that is till he sees the bear and decides to slam on his breaks taking up both lanes while his buddy in the passenger seat rolls down his window (yeah you read that right, fucking idiot) to hang out of it so he can get a picture of the bear. What I thought to myself at that time was, "these are the kind of idiots you see on those When Animals Attack videos..." They were real damn lucky that momma bear didn't come out of the woods.

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I hate my body!

2007-07-25T18:14:00.002-06:00

I HURT! Every part of my body hurts right now but I'm also having these traveling spasms of intense pain that just incapacitate me. Brain fog is horrible, just writing this is challenging and I'm really nauseous, not able to eat much, even watermelon is making me ill.

THIS SUX!

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New Camera & New Ring

2007-05-18T20:15:00.003-06:00

I thought it was time to upgrade the camera. We had an old Fuji Finepix 2650 that still works beautifully but doesn't quite do everything I want in a camera so I just purchased a Fuji Finepix S5700 and gave the old camera to my daughter Christi.

I spent a good deal of time yesterday annoying most everyone by taking various pictures and videos. If you go to myspace you can see a video I took of our fire bowl last night. To see some of the pictures I took you can visit my flickr.

I also took this picture of my new ring. I lost my wedding ring which was sterling silver with celtic designs engraved on it. This is what Parker got me in replacement. *smiles* Yes I do love that man!

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Love is in the air...

2007-05-01T23:58:00.002-06:00

This is my newly engaged daughter Christi and her fiance Mike...

...and the rock. Man does that thing sparkle!

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New Pix

2007-04-11T17:05:00.003-06:00

Since It's been a while and I've done a color change (revert, although I am changing it back to red again) on my hair I decided it was time for new pix of myself.

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FMS is teh sux0r!!1!!!

2007-04-07T20:18:00.003-06:00

I've been in so much frakin pain lately that my daughter's boyfriend has been commenting on how he can tell I'm not well. :-(

I!HATE!FIBRO!

I hate being tired. I hate not being able to think about anything without screaming in my head because I hurt. I hate not being able to do things I think I should be able to do. It SUCKS! I really hate though that some people think it's all in my head because ya know, I don't look sick... yeah, whatever... trade ya.

I hurt... bad... but I'm happy so life is good.

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Stealth Coffee

2007-02-24T21:05:00.005-07:00

I'm involved with a group of pagans in Salt Lake City with an email list called UTAlternativeSpiritualitySubstituteSubstitute or UASS for short. Ever two weeks (or week or three weeks depending on everyone's mood) they get together and have coffee. They call it stealth coffee as a joke because another group had a bi-weekly coffee going and announced they were making it a secret so that some members of UASS couldn't show up. Yeah, whatever... that's the explanation though.

So, last night was Stealth Coffee night at The Greenhouse Effect (coffee and crepes mmmmm). Parker and I decided to attend in stealth style and didn't tell anyone we were going to drive down and be there. The looks on their faces when they saw us were priceless! It was wonderful to reconnect with my friends. I don't get to see them often enough and miss them terribly in between visits. I LOVE YOU GUYS! Last night was a blast.

Also, looks like I'm going to Heartland this year. *grin*

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Valentine Gifts

2007-02-16T16:43:00.004-07:00

This is a picture of part of my Valentine's Day presents. Parker gave me eight roses, one for each year we've been together. I also got the teapot the roses are in with matching sugar bowl, cream pitcher, and a candle that looks like the sugar bowl. The kids gave me a mule with saddle bags that are salt and pepper shakers.

We got the screen up for the theater a couple of days ago so that's where I've been for the past couple of days just watching movies. The picture is just awesome, really bright, sharp, and clear. Soon we'll be getting DirecTV hooked up to it and people might not see me for a while. LOL! Actually I plan on having my laptop in there anyway.

Speaking of computers... Parker totally loves his new machine. He was busy Monday night and missed Heroes. It had been replaying Friday nights on Sci-Fi but it isn't on the schedule tonight so now he's sitting here watching it off of the NBC website on his computer. Yeppers, he is a happy camper.

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Almost Finished

2007-02-12T06:58:00.003-07:00

I'm almost finished with the redesign of wolfrose.com. The new splash page is up and I have the gallery changed over so now all we have left to do is change the wordpress blog over to the new design. Parker tells me it's not that big of a deal.

On the home front we are still waiting on the screen for the theater and we nearly have all the rooms switched around. I've just about decided that we just have way too much stuff. Parker got his new computer all set up and is really happy to no longer be going in slow motion on the old Win98. We've also decided that the formal dining room makes a much better den for the TV and games than it did a collection area for random stuff.

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busy busy

2007-02-07T19:59:00.004-07:00

Parker and I have been busy lately. Both on and off the internet. We are working on putting wordpress on WitchHaven and The PWA. I'm hoping adding blogs will infuse new life in both these. Interestingly enough they both turn TEN this year. I'm also converting my personal website over to wordpress. The blog has been up on there for almost a year already, just have to rework my art gallery and then put up my new design. I also went through and updated the designs on a few of my communities. I wanted to put up styles that had the tags listed on the side.

On the home front, we got our income tax refund and bought ourselves some new toys. Parker got a new computer and LCD since he elected not to do that when he won that style contest. I purchased an HD projector with an 8' screen to make us a nice home theater. This Christmas my mother gave me a 5 DVD surround sound system with an FM receiver for the theater so we are all set. Now we are moving everything around in the house to accommodate the theater. We decided the best place for the theater is the room where we have the computers set up so we're moving the computers to the living room and moving the TV from in there to the formal dining room we don't use.

Things are great. Everyone is in good health and spirits right now. A few months ago I resolved that I would ignore the Psycho Stalker so I'm not stressing over any of that bullshit anymore either. I'm sure she's still being obsessive about me and all that but I don't have to pay attention to it and ignorance really is bliss. Besides, my daughter is 18 now so the reason she claimed to start stalking me (gathering evidence against me for court) is now moot even though her husband owes so much in back child support he'll still be paying me years from now. So yeah, everything is peachy in my world right now.

Oh, and I also got bored with the red I've been putting on my hair for the last ten years so right now it's black again for a while. I like it but I'm sure I'll probably go back red again before the year is over. ;-)

I'll try to update more often.

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Happy Thanksgiving to those in the USofA!

2006-11-21T12:38:00.000-07:00

Hope everyone has a nice holiday! Those of you not in the US, have a great day anyway. :-)

I'ma postin this now because I'm leaving in just a couple of hours to suffer through spending my Thanksgiving in Las Vegas. :-P

I'll be back sometime Sunday.

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Weeeeeeeeeeegggggggsssssss

2006-10-17T03:10:00.000-06:00

I got me some bad ass wigs! I did some graphic work for a wig stylist and she made two wigs for me in return.

and just so I'm pimpin too:
http://empressbiancawigs.com

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Biscuit

2006-10-02T22:46:00.004-06:00

Biscuit
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose.

I have a new chi baby!

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September Snow

2006-09-22T12:53:00.000-06:00

September Snow
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose.

For all you people who are living where it is still hot.

Happy Mabon! (Autum Equinox)

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Well well...

2006-08-30T15:20:00.000-06:00

Apparently he can run but he can't hide forever from wage garnishment. Wonder how long he'll stick with this job before he runs off again. Gotta love them dead beat dads.

Ladies, gentlemen, wenches, and rouges the world stopped spinning briefly today when I checked the child support website and saw that not only am I getting a child support check but, for the first time in about four years, it's for the full amount. o_O

Gee, whatever shall I do with a check in an amount larger than $6.00????

Of course this means now I'll have to be even more cautious of the Psycho Stalker...

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Found in my inbox: Why Dogs Don't Live Long Lives

2006-07-16T16:19:00.003-06:00

This really made me cry.

Ever Wonder Why Dogs Don't Live Long Lives:

Being a veterinarian, I had been called to examine a ten-year-old Irish Wolfhound named Belker. The dog's owners, Ron, his wife, Lisa, and their little boy, Shane, were all very attached to Belker and they were hoping for a miracle.

I examined Belker and found he was dying of cancer. I told the family there were no miracles left for Belker, and offered to perform the euthanasia procedure for the old dog in their home. As we made arrangements, Ron and Lisa told me they thought it would be good for the four-year-old Shane to observe the procedure. They felt as though Shane might learn something from the experience.

The next day, I felt the familiar catch in my throat as Belker's family surrounded him. Shane seemed so calm, petting the old dog for the last time, that I wondered if he understood what was going on. Within a few minutes, Belker slipped peacefully away. The little boy seemed to accept Belker's transition without any difficulty or confusion.

We sat together for a while after Belker's death, wondering aloud about the sad fact that animal lives are shorter than human lives. Shane, who had been listening quietly, piped up, "I know why."

Startled, we all turned to him. What came out of his mouth next stunned me. I'd never heard a more comforting explanation. He said, "People are born so that they can learn how to live a good life -- like loving everybody all the time and being nice, right?" The four-year-old continued, "Well, dogs already know how to do that, so they don't have to stay as long."

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My New Tattoo

2006-06-18T13:05:00.000-06:00

Right Arm

I got this one in honor of my mother who loves fairies. Got the work done when we went down to Texas.

Tattoo work by James Cassel in Midland, TX
Artwork by Amy Brown

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CD Art

2006-06-09T12:55:00.000-06:00

A while back I was contacted by a man living in Nice, France wanting to use Vision of Lilith on a CD of his. After conversing with him I agreed for him to use the image so long as I was credited on the album sleeve and he send me a copy of the CD. Back in February he sent me the CD to my house down in Texas and my mother never sent it on to me up here so I just got it in my hands last week. Total awesomeness!!!!!!!!! The bonus is that I also like the music. It's chamber music. *grin*

You can look too:
http://cdbaby.com/cd/waechter2

I'm on a CD!!!!!!!!!

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Great, just fucking great...

2006-04-10T15:42:00.000-06:00

I got another copy of an Order to Withhold sent to a place of employment for the Rat Bastard. This time it's a drilling company based in Casper Wyoming.

*SIGH*

a.bit.close.

Parker and I have already discussed walking up the block to file a restraining order against the Psycho Stalker since it appears she is now just a few hours away from me.

It's a good damn thing that since Parker grew up in the Casper area and wasn't impressed with the place he has no real desire to even visit that area of the state. We live on the Utah side of Wyoming. Hopefully she'll keep her foul self in Casper and away from me.

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Snow Update

2006-02-15T18:14:00.000-07:00

6 ft drift
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose.

It's still snowing. The wind has shifted slightly and slowed down so the snow isn't swirling like it was earlier.

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I said slight blizzard...

2006-02-15T09:18:00.000-07:00

Now they are saying we are going to get around 20 inches of snow today and we are having gusts up to 45mph.

This would be why we have actual gates to close off the highway and not just the bar kind they just lower in other places...

Snow drift in backyard is around 6 feet now...

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2006-02-15T08:31:00.002-07:00

Snow Drift
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose.

This is the back yard and the snow drift when it was between four and five feet. It's getting deeper by the second. LOL

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Snow...

2006-02-15T08:18:00.003-07:00

burrr

We are having a slight blizzard. They even canceled school. We have about a five foot drift in our back yard...

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eh hem...

2006-02-14T01:43:00.003-07:00

Happy Valentines Day ! ! !

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Life in the Frozen North

2006-01-29T13:40:00.004-07:00

Snow.... and the ten day forecast.... more effin snow.... next Saturday we have a slight chance of sun.

The local library started a reading club earlier this month with a goal of reading ten books or more by April and in April we are going to have a "let it snow somewhere else" party.

Parker and I went to the next town over last night to go to Wal-Mart and in the hour it took in Wal-Mart it snowed enough for the highway department to put up the "chain law in effect" signs. We were happy to get back to the foothills so the snow was blocked a bit by the mountains and the roads were not as bad as in the flatter areas.

I saw three deer cross the street while we were getting gas which really isn't that big of a deal, we have deer walking around town all the time... one was even standing in the drive up at the bank one day... or was that an antelope... I forget, but I do know it wasn't the moose which finally did find it's way out of town.

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I win!

2006-01-22T13:26:00.003-07:00

Parker says I win Lazy WebCrafter of the Year because I've had content for FrogLace.com ready to go up for even longer than we've had the domain and the content actually up on the server since just right after we got it and I just typed (mostly copy paste and search & replace) a bit of code for the pages to display the content today. Not really an actual page either, just a bit of an include file.

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mmmm...

2005-12-25T19:11:00.000-07:00

Life in the frozen north isn't so bad when you have hot buttered rum. *grin*

nummy!

Merry whatever you celebrate!

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Solstice...

2005-12-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

Hope everyone has a very Blessed and Happy Yule however you chose to spend this Winter Solstice Day.

And for my aussie friends, Happy Litha! I hope you're melting your arses off this Summer Solstice Day while I'm freezing mine. ;-)

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Moose Calf

2005-12-18T09:30:00.000-07:00

Moose Calf
Originally uploaded by Gwen Wolfrose.

There is a baby moose on the loose in town. Parker took this picture about 30 minutes ago.

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Cold!

2005-12-07T11:11:00.000-07:00

When I woke up this morning it was -28°F and the wind chill made it feel like -48°F

That's fucking cold!

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hiss spit growl

2005-07-21T22:30:00.004-06:00

Stupid effin public schools!

I let everyone bully me into putting my children back in school. Now the idiots at the school are trying to tell me that my son went in there for the third grade two years ago with a fourth grade reading level now has a third grade reading level. They also argue that it couldn't be that he was bored and just colored in the bubbles on the test... *rolls eyes*

Ok people, either he was bored and made designs on the test or you people suck so bad at what you do that he actually became dumber while attending your educational facility. Fine, argue with me about it. It's not a very good endorsement of your school if I go around telling the world that you uneducated my child.

Send your child to Midland Academy they're sure to become dumber!

*growls*

HE ADVANCED BY TWO GRADES IN HIS READING SKILLS WHEN HE WAS BEING HOME SCHOOLED!!!!!!!!!!

assholes!

Oh yeah, and they want to hold him back a grade and not because he didn't make passing grades on his report cards, totally based on this damn test. To top it off, he's not in a grade that the state mandates that he must pass that test in order to advance to the next grade. My son isn't going to that school again and he's not repeating a grade level he was bored to tears in already.

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It's been a while

2005-07-08T13:44:00.001-06:00

It's been a while since I used blogger but maybe it's time I come back to it. I'm not comfortable on livejournal any more. I just like to ramble anyway and there it's more having to interact with other people so I don't really make real entries. I'm also going to look into putting up coppermine on my domain as well so I can just keep all my stuff in house and go back to being a hermit. Who knows, maybe this will get me to actually start writing again...

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fun fun fun

2005-06-28T22:32:00.003-06:00

Tuesday evening is family night at the public pool. It cost us $7.50 to take five kids and two adults and we get to take our own drinks and food in for a picnic. That is what we did tonight, everyone had a blast, then we came home and started a fire in our fire pit and made smores. I didn't partake of the smores though, waaaaaaaaay to much sugar. After we were done with making smores we put some pinion on the fire. I love the smell of pinion... good thing too because that's what I smell like now. LOL

Next time I might remember to take some pictures...

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Are You Willing to Pay the Coin?

2005-04-26T18:10:00.005-06:00

The Law of Return is IMO the very first and one of the most important things that should be taught to any new witch.

http://www.widdershins.org/vol2iss7/i9707.htm

Be careful what you cast... it could bite you in the ass. Then again, LoR isn't just about casting either...

There are no ten commandments in witchcraft and contrary to popular fluff the rede is not a commandment, it's a pretty poem. Most trad wiccans know this and most witches are not wiccan so it's a moot point. The LoR is universal though, you see it in one form or another in all religions. You reap what you sow. If you don't really understand that old saying, it has to do with planting and harvesting, you harvest what you plant, you get what you give.

So when you go to cast a spell for vengeance what exactly is it that you're willing to sacrifice to get temporary satisfaction? It could be anything, even your own life... or that of someone you love dearly. Is it worth it? Are you willing to pay the coin?

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It's Four Twenty

2005-04-20T00:17:00.001-06:00

Happy Birthday to the best husband in the world!!!

I love you baby!

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Yule & Christmas

2004-12-26T19:19:00.002-07:00

WOW! What a wonderfully blessed holiday season this has been for us! Pictures will be up soon. Didn't get a whole bunch taken though because the batteries in my digital camera decided to die on me right when everyone was opening presents at the big family Christmas Eve party.

Parker, our kids, and I all opened our presents to one another on Yule (Dec. 21). We also did our yearly Yule tide blessings and wishes. On December 23 the whole Wolfrose clan got together at Gimini's house and exchanged gifts. The kids had a blast and of course Gimini cooked so we all stuffed ourselves with truly awesome food. The next party was the big one at my grandmothers house on Christmas Eve where all the kids made out like bandits. Christmas morning we each spent individually. Gimini had to work that morning but enjoyed the rest of the day with her children. Jadynn spent the whole day with her kids, her mother, and her grandparents. My family spent the day at my grandmothers having turkey and roast.

We had a really good holiday and we hope that you are as blessed as we are surrounded by family with lots and lots of love to go around.

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Thanksgiving

2004-11-26T16:59:00.001-07:00

We hope everyone had as great a Thanksgiving as we did! We all spent the morning and early afternoon with our other families and then came together for our traditional Thanksgiving evening feast.

The kids all had a blast. They jumped on the trampoline because it was a nice day. Booter was playing with Gimini's guy and laughed so hard he cried which made everyone else laugh. Of course the food was awesome because Gimini cooked. *grin* Turkey, stuffing, sweet potatoes, gravy, green bean casserole, rolls, deviled eggs, fruit salad, and the deserts! Oh my! Cherry pie, apple pie, pumpkin pie, chocolate pie, Gimini's famous strawberry banana pie, and Parker made a blueberry cake. It was all fantabulous! The most important thing though was that we were together.

We also acquired new family members. Jadynn had brought over her new puppy (Odie) that she got as an early xmas prezie from another friend of hers. She is half Chihuahua, half Pomeranian and cute as a button. The guy she got her from was only charging $20 for the puppies so Gimini bought one for Christi as a thank you for everything she does for her. C named her Brownie and she has the cutest little teddy bear face. I couldn't resist either. Got one which will have the longest hair and named her Lady McBooBerry. Then after explaining that he had to charge for them because some people get the little ones to feed to snakes if they are for free, he mentioned that he had a nine month old Chi to give away for free also. So I got Miss Foxy Roxy too.

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Halloween

2004-11-06T17:58:00.001-07:00

The kids had a great Halloween! PIX
There was a hillbilly, a she devil, a kitty maid, a dead beauty queen, a thrashed out punk rocker, rainbow brite, two power rangers, and a gothic queen who took all the pictures while the witch stayed home to pass out candy to non existent trick or treaters. *grin*

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have to share...

2004-10-30T02:37:00.002-06:00

Parker and I were talking earlier and I was telling him how I envision our retirement years together which basically involves a large piece of land somewhere in northern Az. and a whole lot of peace and quiet. Not totally off the grid but close. When I finished with my vision, I asked Parker what he envisions. He said that what I said sounded pretty good to him. So I said, "don't you have any dreams?" He told me that I've fulfilled every dream he's ever had and as long as the future includes me he will be happy.

Damn I love that man!

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Excuses Excuses

2004-09-08T00:42:00.001-06:00

Well, now it's just that I've been being lazy! LOL Gimini's computer is back up, kinda. It's so friggin slow though that it may as well be down still. Jadynn is back up too but prolly just stuck on bingo.com... which I must admit can be really addictive... I get lost there once in a while myself. *grin* Gimini doesn't, computer is too friggin slow. I need to work on getting her on the broadband...

In other news, I now have the ability to post pictures up to the site using hello and blogger, heck I think I could even do it from my cell phone as well. Once in a while I'm going to post a picture to this blog. I'm still going to put albums up as well, picasa will be a great help with that little venture too. Now all I have to do is get off my lazy but and actually do it. *grin*

That's all for now, ta ta peeps!

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Excuses

2004-07-09T02:36:00.001-06:00

My excuse for not updating or uploading anything new to this site for a while is that I've been interrupted by life. Summer is always like that, busy busy. We do have pictures to go up but I was sick on Braden's birthday so the pix are all of the printed and not digital kind so I have to wait till we scan them in to post any of his birthday pix.

We do of course also have some of Gimini's birthday and Independence Day. Then there are the pix we have taken just because we could take em. So hopefully I'll get around to finding the time to actually upload them.

In other news, both Gimini and Jadynn's computers are down at the moment and my laptop nearly was... don't ask, it involves Gimini and a glass of tea... luckily there is such a thing as a USB keyboard.... ;-)

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Resurection

2004-05-13T23:32:00.001-06:00

I just set up blogger to publish to this page. Some things will work odd like the link for making a comment will pull a page from blogger.com into this iframe since blogger doesn't seem to have a way for me to add in target="_new" to their variable. Oh well...

I've left some of my old entries and deleted a few that were just some silly quizzes. I used to use this before I decided to get on LiveJournal and since I have the account anyway, I decided it would be an easy way for me to add content to the Village front page. *grin* I'll use this to tell about updates to the site and sometimes to tell a cute kid story. Stay tuned!

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just doing my duty lol

2003-05-03T07:43:00.000-06:00

Ok, last night was really awesome!

I also did my duty as HPs and got sick so no one else had to... ;-p

Ok, ok, here's what happened... we were drinking beer, then we had wine with the rite, then I smoked some cannibus that was passed around, and I didn't get a chance to eat a proper meal before the rite started so on top of being shit faced, my sugar dropped way too low so I got sick and nearly passed out. BLEH!

Ok, so lesson learned... next time I should eat no matter how late we are running, and I should not mix beer, wine, and pot...

but, it was a really AWESOME BELTANE! *grin*

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Going to a funeral

2003-03-13T09:58:00.000-07:00

I'm going to Oklahoma for a few days.
Christi's great grandmother died.

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Cute Cat Pictures

2003-02-14T12:38:00.001-07:00

Frigga the perpetual calico kitten in a tree waiting for the birds...

The Call of Cthulu
Copyright © 10/21/2002 () Parker Torrence
Light catnip inscense.
Make sign of opening the cat food.
Face east "In the name of Friskies do I summon you!"
Face South "In the name of Purina do I summon you!"
Face West "In the name of Whiskas do I sommon you!"
Face North "In the name of Iams do I summon you!"
Now chant until the beast apears: "O Grey Cthulhu, who dwells below the bed, come forth for I summon you!"

Our grey cat named Cthulu

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Cute Cat Pictures

2003-02-14T12:38:00.000-07:00

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ugh

2003-02-10T10:56:00.000-07:00

I woke up in a world of pain today and yes it has me in a grumpy mood.

I can barely walk today... so much for thinking my back pain was over...

I'm going back to bed!

cold weather = disabling pain

*grumble*

I have friggin work to do too damn it, I need to install a big cgi script but I can't take this chair for very long right now... ugh!

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Carlsbad, NM

2002-08-15T10:21:00.001-06:00

Just got back from vacation. We went to Carlsbad, New Mexico where we went to the Living Desert State Park which is a botanical garden and zoo, and of course we also went to the Carlsbad Caverns.

This really amazing thing happened at the zoo, they have a Raven and Parker started talking to it in his magickal language. The Raven flew down and puffed up real pretty for him, then she gave him an under feather! Parker continued talking to her and she danced around to the back of the cage, grabbed one of her outer feathers and then presented that to him as a gift as well! Then she gave him a rock when he told her how pretty she was and flew back up to her perch. It was really, really kewl!

Zoo's over all though mostly depress me. The Raven was kewl, but I know she hated that cage and all the other animals there looked miserable. It's just not right IMO to cage a wild thing...

We wanted to see the wolves they have there but it was way too hot so they were of course not out in the open (smart wolves). We did see a coyote on our way up to Carlsbad though, just a few miles north of Pecos one ran out in front of us and I had to swerve to miss it.

The Caverns were of course awesome, we've been there before so we skipped the natural entrance this time. I really doubt that I could walk down that thing right now anyway. We did however do the Kings Palace and the entire Big Room tours.

We were going to go to Sitting Bull Falls (in the Lincoln National Forest) on Wednesday but we were all sore from walking the cave so decided against it. We drove home going through the Guadalupe Mountains and then down to Van Horn to take the Interstate home.

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The Beeotch Goddess

Ten years ago...

Lydia has Starbucks

Don't Quit - Author Unknown

Miss Lydia

OMG! Srsly?

So much...

Finally!

Graduation Day

Fibro February...

Willow the Wiccabe

The History of the Psycho Stalker

Blessed

The New Moon

meanwhile back on Hoth...

Going Home

Blessings for 2010!

Still in Vegas

Merry Xmas!

Winter Vacation

Road Trip

Same shit different year...

Snow, snow and more snow

Lydia's First Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving with the Family

Witches Among Us

The Social Event of the Year!

Gardnerians_all Yahoo!Group

Lydia Oleen Stringer-Lund

just a small update

LA Times

*sighs*

It was ten years ago today...

I should post an update eh

Las Vegas Snow 08

Going South was a grand idea!

Election Day

Blessed Samhain to all!

What?? Are you serious?

Witches High Tea

SLC Pagan Pride Day 2008

Health Care

GingerSnap

Home!!

hmmm

Evil Stairs of Doom Vs Kayote

The Good Stuff

Element 11 (the Utah Burn)/ Fibro crap

Renn Faire, Fibro, and Fucktards oh my!

Today I learned...

ok this flare can go away any time now...

bad day

What a weekend!

Family Vacation with Asshat Humans and a Bear

I hate my body!

THIS SUX!

New Camera & New Ring

Love is in the air...

New Pix

FMS is teh sux0r!!1!!!

Stealth Coffee

Valentine Gifts

Almost Finished

busy busy

Happy Thanksgiving to those in the USofA!

Weeeeeeeeeeegggggggsssssss

Biscuit

September Snow

Well well...

Found in my inbox: Why Dogs Don't Live Long Lives

My New Tattoo

CD Art

Great, just fucking great...

Snow Update

I said slight blizzard...

Snow...

eh hem...

Happy Valentines Day ! ! !

Life in the Frozen North

I win!

sighs